So, it’s
4:30AM and here I am, writing this blog post.
For nearly a week, I have been trying to put pieces together into
something coherent and meaningful. But
the words will not behave.
It’s not
writer’s block, exactly. Do I write
about the joy of libraries? About my
favorite childhood authors? About the
need for more female protagonists in children’s books? Or do I write about my idiosyncratic
appraisal clients, such as the one who left a bag of figs dangling from my
mailbox just yesterday? Do I “cheat” and
fall back on a piece about my bad “car karma,” including Migo’s first ride in a
tow truck last week? I have plenty of
material. My little notebook is full of
paragraphs going in a variety of directions.
Which is, perhaps, a reflection of the rest of my life. Since I have come home (and been blessed to realize that Cape May is home), my life has been exuberantly full. I have a pleasantly nagging backlog of appraisal work. When I can’t DIY in This Old House, I have been trying to corral the “Cape Maybe” contractors that gave Carol the title for her second novel. Then, time for line dancing class, fitness class, even Migo’s obedience class. Time to catch up with friends. Time to feed my “Amazon Prime” addiction. I have been giving my life 16 to 18 hour days, and I have no trouble falling asleep!
And I still
write every day. Journal, Facebook,
garrulous texts…in addition to appraisal reports and my notebook musings. I notice that my voice is starting to change,
and I wonder where that will take me.
Because my return to "Kansas" has also made me keenly aware of time. I see the winter months not too far ahead of me, both literally and figuratively, and realize I may be moving much more slowly then. I am still a bit scattered, getting it all back together, but I do have direction.
So, when I
awoke and embraced this morning’s gift of time, I found myself thinking of The
Byrds’ “Turn, Turn, Turn.”
I believe the pieces will come together in their good time.
I believe the pieces will come together in their good time.
Mary, It sounds as if your life is full of options. And what could be better than that? I have similar struggles in finding the right topic when it's my time to post. Lots of options in terms of topics, but finding the one that will resonate with readers. That's the part I struggle with. Loved the music and thought behind it. Chris
ReplyDeleteDItto what Chris said :)
ReplyDeleteand, love that song. Thanks for the post and link